Tuesday, December 08, 2009

holiday fantasies



This is me every year at the holidays: longing for more.

(Acutally, right after this photo was taken, I gorged myself on pie... but let's don't disrupt the theme I've got going here).

Every year I bemoan the too-few hours in the day, as I wish I had more time to decorate the house, bake treats, make gifts, send greetings... and every year I get to do some of it, and at least savor the fantasy of all the other fun things I meant to do.

This year, I'm starting to realize that my holiday crafting and nesting will consist of little more than the savored fantasy. My first Christmas as a full-time working mama with a little baby at home...

Don't get me wrong, I am very excited about the first Christmas with the Little Pea. I can't wait to sing carols with her and snuggle together by the fire on Christmas morning, give her her very first Christmas present, and watch her be spoiled to death by our family. In fact, as I write this I'm getting even more excited about it!

But this will be the first Christmas in a long time - maybe since I was the Little Pea's age - that my family members won't be getting gifts made by me. I am trying like heck to finish a pair of socks that I started last April, and I have every intention of making a gift for the Little Pea, but I think that's going to be the sum of it. *sigh* So sad!

But all the same, I want you to know that even though I probably won't send you a hand-made card this year, I am thinking of you. Imagine that we got together and baked cookies on a cold, blustery December afternoon and drank spiced cider and danced around to goofy Christmas music. I am savoring the memories of many blustery December afternoons making little gifts with friends, and the evenings squirreled away in a coffee shop somewhere on December 23rd trying like heck to finish a way-too-ambitious gift in time.

I hope you get to make some of those memories this year! I'll try not to drool (better go eat some of that pie).

5 comments:

  1. that first year is tough, especially as you are juggling work, home, baby, life. the thing is, once the baby time is done, then you can do creating and crafts with her...this year feels sp nest because we are making stuff together for the family. happy holidays to you and yours. :)

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  2. um, 'so neat' is what i meant. man, i have to proof better.

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  3. Oh I know how you feel. This year, I'm picking the hand made and crafting up again. Still not as much as I'd like to and it always feels so little, but at least I'm doing it again! So yes, it'll come back!

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  4. No guilt! You will have a very special Christmas with DH and Little Pea, and that's what's important. Enjoy every minute! You only get the first one, once.

    And the pie looks soooo good.

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  5. i am imagining...
    maybe we'll make
    cookies together
    in january.
    sometimes
    a dissertation
    is like a baby
    minus the snuggles.
    xoxo

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