Wednesday, February 08, 2012

knit through it


an old picture of my home knitting nest, circa 2007. today's nest is sadly lacking in feline companionship.

I'm not sure what exactly I want to say about things right now.

I am blessed, that's for sure. I have a roof over my head, a loving companion and a sweet healthy child. We have enough food. We have jobs. We have friends and family. It's important to remind myself of these things, to keep everything in perspective.

As my sister said, it could be a lot worse. Some families have much worse to deal with. Abuse. Neglect. Nobody who loves them.

We have lots of love. We are lucky.

My dad is sick. My dad is 62. My dad was the picture of health until very recently. Now he is sick. Now we are spending too many long, boring days in the hospital waiting for the next test, the next update, the next procedure.

The knitting nest on my couch is frequently transformed into a bed for my mom, since our house is so much closer to the hospital. The Little Pea is so happy to see more of her grandmother, but bewildered by the absence of her buddy, my mom's other half, her grandfather.

He is at home right now. He is waiting... we're all waiting... waiting to find out what the course of treatment will be. Waiting to know what the prognosis is. Waiting to find out what to expect.

There is certainly lots of time for knitting. Miles and miles of stockinette stitch, acres of repeating patterns... I could be knitting afghans or men's sweaters, or many many pairs of warm socks. I am struggling a bit right now with what project to pick up and take for these long hours of waiting. As if something in the choice I make will tell us something about the future.

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  1. I'm so sorry about your dad. That's scary, and also relevant to me as it's my dad age exactly. I hope he gets better quickly. *hugs*

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  2. I am so sorry about your Dad dealing with health issues. I hope he gets well real soon!

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  3. Oh that's sad to hear. I am sending good thoughts your way and hope he gets better.

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  4. Sending hugs, good thoughts and wishes for your dad's good health.

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  5. it doesn't matter what you knit while waiting, just take something to knit and when you feel like knitting while waiting, you knit, and you wait and pray and hope and knit and hope and pray and drink coffee and hold your Mom's hand and listen to her talk about your Dad and when they were courting and first married and you knit and wait and breathe and pray...no matter what you take with you you will knit and it will comfort you

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  6. Hugs and healing thoughts to your family-I hope you get some good answers soon

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  7. My sister and mother knitted Mara shawls when our mother had breast cancer - something about garter stitch was very soothing. I knitted a sockhead hat. My suggestion is to keep it simple - your emotional energy will be elsewhere.

    I hope that things look up.

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  8. Thinking of you and your family.

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  9. Wishing you and your family all the best.

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  10. Sending good thoughts to you and your family.

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  11. Thank you so much, everyone for the hugs & good wishes. I really appreciate it!

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  12. I lost my mom 20 years ago so I'm grateful that my 76yo old dad is in very good health. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and hope for a happy outcome.

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  13. I'm sorry to hear this - sending lots of good thoughts your way.

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  14. I'm sending hopeful thoughts your way that things with your dad will improve quickly. One knitting suggestion is the Mohair Bias Loop from Churchmouse yarns. It is mindless stockinette, very pretty, and scrunches into a tiny bag. Easy to stop and start at a moment's notice. Choose a cheery color.

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  15. I'm so sorry. Warmest thoughts and hopes for you and your family.

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  16. Just popping in to let you know I have given you the Versatile Blogger award. Enjoy the rest of your week.

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    1. Thank you so much, Dorothy! I hope I can find a few minutes to pass on the good turn! : )

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  17. f. pea, you are in my heart. just saw this - i am thinking of you and your family and hoping that you find some momentary solace - in knitting, or bad tv, or good chocolate, or long walks, or good cries. these are some of the things that worked for me. xo

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  18. Wishing you and your family all the best. Hoping your Dad makes a full recovery and fast.

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  19. I'm so so sorry to hear this about your dad. I'm glad you're getting to see him and can be with family while you wait for more information. My mom is in the hospital right now too. Sort of similar. She has sepsis that is not responding to treatment and we don't know how she got the infection. It's a mystery and scary. I will be thinking about your dad and my mom. Hugs.

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    1. Oh Paige, that's so scary. I'm really sorry. I hope they get it under control soon! Thinking of you too. xo

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  20. Have been trying to contact you via Ravelry, need a permission. Thank you.

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